I Would Go Gentle

I Would Go Gentle

Dylan, I would go gentle
into that good night;
I am bone weary living
in this lying light;
rather I a shadow
than a being trite.

But death will not beckon,
not call me to dance-
and too bound to Mercy
am I to chance
embracing, at will
that last alliance.

For no horror would I gift
to strangers or friends,
no screaming dreams
to repeat without end.
no curse on the bright
of their horizons

So I wait, catatonic
in this waiting place,
impatient to see
Death’s welcoming face,
eager to rest
in his cooling embrace.

Necros! I am waiting.
Come! Hold me tight.
There will be no weeping
in that long and good night.

………………………….   198?

 

Notes on I Would Go Gentle

It seems to me that I have used Dylan’s words and general theme one other time (can’t remember where) but I remember this as the very first time because I remember that when I wrote it, I and a lover, with whom I’d had a ten year off and on, stop and go, relationship, made the decision to make a clean break.  It was a traumatic time and was enhanced by the fact I couldn’t get an acting break, owed a ton of money for pictures ,acting workshops, past-due phone bills and back-rent.  Not a happy time.  Now that I think about it, I’m surprised I survived it.

As I have said elsewhere, my life has always felt on the edge of being too much to bear, but I always bore it.  This piece came during one of those particularly edgy times.

 

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About elrondsilvermaul

I never know what to say about myself. I let what I write try to speak as to who I am. I can only add, here, that I am 72, live in a nursing home, am twenty years a cancer survivor, and identify as a gay male. I intend to use this blog as storage for poems? written over the long years (and still being written). This does not preclude other uses.
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3 Responses to I Would Go Gentle

  1. Reblogged this on 21 Too young to die and commented:
    Beauty

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  2. PennyD says:

    You are an erudite due to that edginess. So enjoy your words.

    Like

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