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Biographical

January 17-Catechism

All serious daring starts from within. Eudora Wetley He swears he doesn’t remember ever believing in Santa Claus. You need a certain innocence, a certain level of trust to do so; except for the first four years of his life, … Continue reading

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My Secret Identity #3

.From a personal journal entryMY SECRET IDENTITY #3 CONTINUED FROM AUG. 26, 2005There is a native wisdom in most gay people, even in the beginning, to keep their true selves hidden. I don’t know if it is a genetically spawned … Continue reading

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Happenstance of Carnality

Happenstance of Carnality Always the alien, the set apart, the stranger I walk in shoes at once to big, and too small for my comfort I was a happenstance of careless carnality, unwelcome even as I was becoming- born legitimate … Continue reading

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My Secret Identity #2 Tarzan-8/26/2005

My Secret Identity #2 Tarzan-8/26/2005 I was 12 when I began to understand that men excited me in a way that women never would. His name was James, but we, my sister and I, called him Tarzan. My sister gave … Continue reading

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RE: Mother’s Death

RE: Mother’s Death 2/15/2000 Ah, mother, you went into the grey mist and I did not wail. Whatever of my tears your passing earned had long been spent, you died, for me, years before, your account was in arrears, long, … Continue reading

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Elmer’s Building- Culled from the Journal- 3/10/66

It was 1947; the war had been over, going on two years. The family, then, consisted of my parents, Ray Sr. and Audrey, myself, my sister Renee and my mother’s younger brother, Delano. I was four going on five, Renee … Continue reading

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From a journal entry- Sept. 26, 1993-

From a journal entry- Sept. 26, 1993- It is my fancy, having been born on the twelfth day of September, that I was conceived on a liquor laden New Year’s Eve. My life, you might say, beginning as a “fucking … Continue reading

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